Back in lockdown

 When lockdown first became a thing in March I thought that I would use the opportunity to get thin and fit. Yep! That's what I was going to do. Instead of doing that, I volunteered with a meals on wheels charity and watched tele (and drank, of course). Then we came out of lockdown, briefly, and I basically spent too much time in the pub. The pub situation was bizarre to say the least. You had to walk in with your mask on, sit down, take your mask off. Table service was the strangest thing in my local pub. The staff are my friends so it was so odd having them wait on me. If you wanted to go to the toilet....mask on! You get the picture. I didn't enjoy that situation and I've never been a big home drinker so I thought I would give sobriety a go. Here I am, 10 weeks sober, and we're back in lockdown! So this time, two weeks before Christmas I'm going to try the thin and fit thing again. So I'm taking myself out for a walk.....I've got to start somewhere!

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